I have wanted to be a Mommy for as long as I can remember. I've thought about it constantly from a very early age. I would tell myself that it would be perfect if I could go to college, fall in love with a wonderful man who was different from me so we could learn from each other, enjoy our alone time together and develop a very strong relationship, then start a family. That was my ultimate dream. Sometimes I still can't believe that my dreams have come true! I met Matthew my freshman year at FSU (2000), we started dating in September of 2001, got engaged in March of 2007, got married in September of 2007 and got pregnant in August of 2010! And although life has been far from perfect, I wouldn't change a thing. Matthew and I have shared such amazing times together, and we have been able to learn and grow from all of the not so amazing times together. Our relationship is stronger than ever, and I feel so incredibly lucky to bring a child into this world with two parents who are madly in love with each other.
This baby is such a blessing for Matthew and I! We are so thankful and appreciative that we were able to get pregnant so quickly (1st try!) when there are others in this world who struggle with fertility. I am so grateful that we have been blessed with fertility. This is by far the most magical and spiritual thing I have ever felt.
So, we decided that I would go off of birth control in June, and that we would try for a baby in July. But we actually missed the window of opportunity in July. So, Matthew timed everything perfectly for August. We both kept saying that it would be amazing to get pregnant right away but that we didn't expect it. So in August we were both very excited. We both had such a strong feeling about the life that we felt was meant to be created. We both remember the exact moment we created this life. I will never forget it. :) Waiting until it was soon enough to take a pregnancy test seemed like forever! We both felt like we just "knew" I was pregnant, but we didn't want to get our hopes up. Then, 5 days before my missed period, I got an early response test and it was negative. I took one everyday for the next 5 days. All negative. Then, I missed my period. Still, tests were negative. My doctor wouldn't see me unless I was a week late. I made an appointment for September 3 and kept taking tests. On September 2, I took a test in the evening. I was sitting out on the couch with Matthew waiting and he said he was going to look first when it was ready. So he went in to the bathroom and I followed him, thinking it would be another test with just one line. BUT, Matthew said "2 lines!" I asked him a few times if he was serious and then he showed me... 2 lines!!! We were SO excited! We laughed and cried and freaked out together for a little bit. I felt like I had just won the lottery, I didn't know what to do first!
(to be continued ASAP!)
This is a photo from September 25, 2010, 8 weeks pregnant. I feel like I started showing super early! Of course my stomach wasn't perfectly flat before I got pregnant. ;)
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